God is such a great God! He is always there for me. He has never forsaken me. He is the truest Friend!
Some people in my life know of certain physical struggles I have in my life. A majority of women on my father's side of the family have similar struggles, so it has come as no surprise to me. However, there is the occasional frustrating thought that goes through my mind because of it.
Mine takes the form of missed cycles, sometimes lasting for years at a time. Being overweight and having a rather unhealthy diet did not aide matters, but this problem is inherit. This previous bout lasted for a year.
As of late, I have resigned myself to accept whatever the Lord's will is in my life regarding my health in this area. It is not always easy, as the tempter and my own flesh torment me. As I sometimes grow jealous of other women who seemingly have it easier than I, it can irritate the problem.
I know it is not healthy for my body to not have its normal cleansing cycle, and it is not healthy for my spirit to harbor worried feelings. So, I unloaded my burden onto my Lord, Jesus Christ, once again.
I shared with Him my concerns: from my limited understanding, it was not healthy for me; desiring a healthy environment for any child He might allow us to create; even having the possibility to have children; encouraging problems by being overweight and having an unhealthy lifestyle; not being a good example by previous acknowledgement; having fears; etc.
I did ask Him to help me accept whatever His will was, though. He created my womb, so He knows it best. If He decided to keep it closed, then He is to be praised. If He decided to open it, then He is to be praised. I shared with Him my desire for it to be opened, and at the very least, cleansed.
The very next night showed the Great Physician's touch. The very next night. Knowing my history, folks, this is not normal. Along with that fact is another fact that it is not normal for me to have a typical length of cycle. Yet, I am here to say today that I indeed had a very normal, very functioning cycle!
No one else could have done for me this miracle. Indeed, I call it a miracle, for so it is. Doctors wanted to put me on medication that would have harmed me and any baby my husband and I would have wanted to have. I was not doing my part very effectively on losing the weight, though it is to be well-noted that when I was in a healthy weight, my body still performed poorly in this area.
I HAVE to give Christ all praise in this event! God was so gracious unto me! It is wonderful to see His almighty hand in my life!