Saturday, September 16, 2006

A New Beginning

     Well, I know I have not written in here for a while.  That is due to the fact that on July 31, 2006, my father went into the hospital for back pain, and found out that he had stage four cancer.  One month later he died.
     I was able to be with him five days before he went Home to Jesus.  From the first time he went to the hospital, 'til I went to Ohio, I was on the phone with him.   I made sure I would call him every day; something inside of me knew I did not have long with him--but at the same time I thought I had all the time in the world with him.
     I remember he told me once I walked into his hospital room, "I'm glad to see ya sweetie, just not under these circumstances."  He asked me what I thought of the situation, and I let him know that I was glad to be with him, but I that I did not like seeing him endure such pain.  He reminded me that God was allowing it for a reason.  I am still looking for that reason.
     I know he is in a better place now, (that old cliche, but it is so true).  It is where all saved souls go when it is their time.  However, it has been difficult for me.  When I came back home, I wanted to just pick up the phone and call Dad:  I could call him anytime, and he would talk with me for hours!  Now, I have to wait until I am in Heaven to talk to him.
     Do not get me wrong, though.  I would not wish him back here, ever.  His body was so entangled with the cancer and other complications, that his life would not have had much quality to it; if any at all.  He would have been a vegetable.  That is not who my dad was.  Sure, we had our problems, and a lot of wrong was done by his hand--BUT, he was still the father God gave me, and I will love him always.
     God has blessed me with a superb support system. My husband has been so wonderful through this experience, and the church family in which God has placed me has been absolutely marvelous! I have been given such love and support that I have never known. It has been truly a blessing.
     I just keep praying that God gives me strength, comfort, and the wisdom needed to grow from this experience.  I cannot allow it to drag me down, or keep me at a standstill.  I must move forward and serve God diligently, happily, and willingly with all my heart and soul.  Experiencing my father go to our Heavenly Father was difficult, but not impossible to bear.  God will see me through this time, and that is cause alone to give thanks.  Most of all, though, is that my dad got the greatest gift of all--To go Home to our Saviour!

Wednesday, July 26, 2006

Just A Normal Day In My Life

     Well, I finally got rid of my Myspace account.  I decided on Sunday that I would; and deleted it on Monday morning.  It was definitely a hindrance to my walk with the Lord, and I already have other things that hinder me:  why purposely do so with such a toxic website?
     So, now I am trying to do better with my walk.  Believe me, it is a work-in-progress; but one for which I am willing to fight and struggle, (struggling due to my old flesh here).  God definitely is good to me, though.  He has been patient, kind, and gentle, (among other things), with me through all of this "weeding."
     Amongst other news, Dear and I are looking forward to a trip next month. It will only be for the weekend, but something we feel is needed and definitely appreciated.  Closer to the present, we have a wedding to attend this weekend for one of his cousins.  Then after that event, we have quiz night at church on Sunday, which is definitely a lot of fun!
     In September, our church will be starting up a Bible Institute.  We both want to attend, but I think it is geared more towards men, so they can get the education for becoming pastors.  I am sure there are some courses that women can attend.  I will just have to ask.
     Well, other than those things, not too much is going on around here.  We do stay pretty active with the church nowadays, as well as the normal everyday chores.  Nothing too exciting!
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